Kissa- Kuch alfaz

Na mazhab (dharam) tha na mehraz (ruler or protector) tha…
Yeh Ishq-e-dunia kuch behtar tha..
Bin ruki si sanse thi..
Woh sath bhi marte dam tak tha
Na mazhab tha na mehraz tha..

Is paar agaaz, us paar anjam
Mera ghar bhi uske ghar mein tha
Woh bhi apna, tu bhi apna
Chand zami’n ki had tak tha.
Na mazhab tha na mehraz tha..

Uski nadiya ik dariya tha,
Hawao’n ka bhi ik irtifa (altitude) tha
Cheen k le gye mujhko jo
Ta-umar ka usse rishta tha
Na mazhab tha na mehraz tha…

Choo-ti kaise “Razia” uss parchayi ko
Thama na woh badal hi tha
Kisse reh gye mere lafz ab toh
Waqt kal (past day) ka…… na kal (next day) ka tha
Na mazhab tha na mehraz tha….

Field of Dreams


I think Dreams are the only human thing for which no reason have found by scientists till now. Dreams, the word itself is interesting. I don’t know how they are building up in my mind and comes with variety of colors in night. The time when we are dreaming, we do not know the real life. It seems we are originally where we are dreaming of. Such an incredible thing it is! Isn’t it? Dreams can be anything. Recently I dreamed that I am sleeping in my dream and dreaming another dream. It was certain. There is no limit or bound on dreams. It can start whenever want in you deep sleep and can make you happy or sad by own choices.

Once a day, I was thinking about dreams that exactly what they are. I start day dreaming about so many things and suddenly my Mom came and shouted, “Where your mind is? I am calling you and you are not replying me.” I answered in flurry, “Mmm….Mom, ah…aa… I was Dreaming”. She rubbed my back and sat next to me and asked, “Ok, what were you dreaming about?” I started telling her: Mom, I am dreaming about a big area where I am building my house. We have pools, play grounds, Fruit Trees, a big lawn, etc etc. I kept on saying and my Mom was listening to me very carefully. I thought she is felling into that dream too but suddenly my mom stops me and said, “Oh darling! You are dreaming about your new home. This is great. Let me tell you a Story” I was looking my mom with full of curiosity and interest then she started:

There was small village which in hilly area. There are number of hillocks in this village. Among all, there is small monticule which was even and flat from top. The sunset view was amazing from this top. Villagers used to visit this monticule to see beauty of nature and usually dreamed about a beautiful house over this hillock but it was very hard to get required stuff to reach over there. There was a family of an old man who was living nearby to this place. He did morning and evening walk daily. He carried some bricks or stones in his hand while walking. Every villager was taunting him and making his jokes by saying him “Arree! Budha Pagla gya hai! (Translation: Oh Lord! This old man got mad!) No one can make house with this 2 bricks in his hands. But all these didn’t effect old man. With his huge efforts, his family started supporting him. They kept on picking some materials while going to that mount.

Years had been passed! One day there was enough material to build a beautiful house. He built his dream house as he want. People around him was shocked and start praising him and thinking inside, we wish we could make those efforts to build a dream house at this place. Mom put her hands on my head and asked, “Hmmm!!!! So did you get why I tell you this story?” I said, “Yes! Mom. I learnt. Dreams are only those which can be fulfil by our will power and struggle.

Then my Mom gave me a lesson:

Dreams are those who do not let you sleep. We do not even remember in the morning, the dream we seen while sleeping. But those Dreams which are seen with open eyes, we not only remember them, but they do not let us sleep. So dream Big and Work harder to make your dream come true.

Time will never Stop ⊗

water-time-1024x576It is wonder that how this world works. It is wonder how time never stop as it is meant to be like that only because otherwise people gonna stay at their best memory places forever! I wish I could be stay there where I feel happy & some time secure.

Ummm! I am under depression today.  The time when I settled so many things & was totally about to take another step to move ahead in my life suddenly something pulled me back. It was time to sleep but I was not in mood of. So many things were running across mind. For the time being it seems like…. Quite…. Shhhh…. No need to speak about anything and elsewhere I feel like it is good to burst out of your inner layer.

Today my motive is to tell myself that time never gonna stop for anyone. It will be never happening. Wish would remain be wish if you are not come up with. This thought come to mind when I was washing cloths and expecting few things for and from me. The expectation goes into another way, where no one gonna stop you to come and sit here and let us discuss.

The Time  is not waiting for me to do well. I have so many dreams. I will have to do those things within the time. But where is the TIME? Why am I unable to cope up with? I am completing my tasks on time. Earning well according to job but why I could get time for everything.  I am in confusion for this but I have results too.  Every thing has a reason to happen. Nothing is worthless which happening around me and you. There is No use thinking of the past for its gone, don’t think of the future because it has to come, think of the present because that’s where you are.

Elizabeth Forsythe Hailey said “Time is a cruel thief to rob us of our former selves. We lose as much to life as we do to death. “

Let me plan for my things again.  I need to focus again to my wishes & dreams which are still in queue to happen. Let me there in my time where I stopped and again started to motivate myself only. Yesss!!! Let it burst out.

Moral: Know the true value of time; snatch, seize, and enjoy every moment of it. No idleness, no laziness, no procrastination: never put off till tomorrow what you can do today. Be there! Be in present and then you will definitely cope up with it. 

The life Changes


It is a new start! Few days ago I met one person who was trying to talk and wanted to be frank with me but I was not. The reason behind my expressions were unknown. It does not mean that I was showing my attitude or something because I am what I am. I treated him well and I was not at all arrogant but suddenly I received a massage from his side that “This is Life and every day is a new beginning.” I was amazed and asked him why did he wrote this to me? He observed something or some intuition has come onto his mind, I was curious to know.  but he did not answer.

  “This is Life and every day is a new beginning.” We read this line many times. We give advises to people but are we following it? Let us start here…….

The only thing which keep on running is our mind. Our mind has an incredible and powerful ability to change the things. This can create, modify, update & delete the moments which had happened, are happening and may be you are about to do it. When we start realizing what our mind is trying to say, or we suddenly opt the things which our mind was asking us for long, at that time a change has come into our life’s door step. We know very well that Change is a necessity but some time we were not ready and sudden change happen. It can be anything. Could be related to you daily work routine, might be nature of person toward you or can be your internal yourself which was not agreeing to change but it did ! The only reason is ” Change is a process not a event.”

Many times you feel distrust or antagonist but the happening has happened. So this is what I learnt new is Change is a phenomenon. You cant stop what is changing or what next gonna change. So be in present and live in Today.  If you are in present then you will not be worrying for future. Yes! This is life. Everything keeps on moving. Every day is a new beginning so Live it and pass positive vibes to others.


Types of Struggles


strg.jpgHi this is me again, with a new interest, Type of struggles. This is the another part of Girl who born to learn. 

It is true ! Struggles teach us a lot but some time, your own struggles teach you to quit… just to quit everything but I did not do that.

I started my struggle when I was a kid. I lived like a boy. My papa was willing me to live like a boy and I did. My first struggle started from here. every one used to ask me that why I am so but I liked myself as I was. I studied well. I participated in almost every curricular activities. I stood first, struggle starts here. Suddenly my sister got married and Now my mum was doing all the works alone. Now as being a girl, I was the only person who can do household works on regular basis. (As an typical Indian mentality) I had seen the days when my brother was not doing any work at home but I was doing because I am a girl. Yes! I am a girl but the things differentiate. Here struggle starts. I started comparing the things like he is a boy and he is not doing these things and I am a girl and I have to do such things. It was my internal struggle. I was not talking to others for this. Yes! I was in depression for the same. I was losing my interest in  most interested things of life as student.

I did my senior secondary with Physics, Chemistry & Mathematics. I was willing to do Engineering after that. I had given entrance test for Engineering but could not do. Again! another struggle starts here. I have joined Bachelor’s in Science. I tries to quit everything in between but struggle made me to run again. I tried to quit but I couldn’t. I get frustrated but I ran. Again! struggle starts here. After breaking my dreams with a big hammer, I reunite again and moved to NZ. I was home sick, alone and losing hope there. I was jobless, lack of money, no work. I frustrated. Again! Struggle starts here. I worked hard met some beautiful Kiwis, I learnt how to be only strong if nothing else. I worked with inspirational people. I learned new things. then studies completed, again in search of better opportunity. Again! struggle starts here.

The Struggles always are different at different situations. Some time, we are unable to express what we did and what we want to do and inner struggle starts which is most dangerous. We are unable to control our brain and heart at same time. So try to opt only one among both otherwise internal struggle will never quit. We took some serious steps in pressure or to avoid those struggles but nothing changes because your early step dig a well to fall in. Struggles are the part of bright future ! BUT if you are still struggling internally then please don’t. Express it your near ones to protect your self ,to live your dreams alive.

So in nutshell, Struggle for your will, struggle for your dreams but do not struggle internally. Always remember, “Where there is the SUN there is the SHINE.” Bright Shine.